Withdrawing from Hydra Productions

Since signing up to five short story collections and a novel with this company, some matters have come to my attention which has left me concerned about working with them. I will not give any more details. I never signed any contracts with them, and will not be doing so. Anyone still working with the company, I wish you all the best.

I urge inexperienced authors to check the fine print very carefully. As well as looking into the public and personal feeds of the company before signing.

Onwards and upwards.




Until my Dying Day now live!

I have been excited for this, for months now.

Rainbow Romances, launched yesterday for National AIDS Trust, already gaining storming reviews. I am so proud of all my writers on this collection and everyone’s hard work in putting this together and publishing in just three months! I never thought we could do it. Already there are plans underway for a huge collection next spring for Rainbow Fantasy. More than twenty authors have signed up to date.

So, my story in this collection shows Francis. A young man who ends up losing everything. His mother dies of cancer, his family drift away from him, his father hates him, he has to move away from the Res he has called home his whole life and adjust to city living. In a school, where he is bullied relentlessly for not only being gay, but non-white. We see him smashed down until he has nothing left but suicide, or so he feels.

But, this is not a doom and gloom storyline. Francis meets a young man called Xander who does everything he can to keep Francis alive and teach him how to live and love again. As he slowly makes his way back to recovery. We cut between the past, of how things happened to him and the brighter future where he is engaged, a father and now speaking out against bullies to try and help the generation behind him.

This was a very personal story for me to write, one I wasn’t sure I would ever share with others, but I am glad that I have. I hope that it helps people on their road to recovery as well.


Early reviews:

I absolutely loved this entire collection of fantastic stories. Each one is a variation of the theme of love struggling to overcome adversity. Some were snarky, some were sweet, but Until My Dying Day by Sarah Beth James literally tore my heart apart, leaving me bawling like a baby, and going through tissues faster than a speeding locomotive. The author’s heartfelt ending left me sighing with happiness. Please one click this ASAP!



Until My Dying Day: This has been the most powerful story yet. I cried a lot. No one deserves anything that this young man has gone through. To be in the mind of someone whose life is so bad that they feel suicide is the only solution is mind blowing. To understand how it only takes 1 person or maybe even one moment to help someone without even knowing it, makes me want to be a better person.



Until My Dying Day (5 stars) is a beutiful, emotional, deep story about emargination, depression and the healing power of friendship and love. This is also about family not being a matter of blood, but a matter of choice and love.
It keeps you reading with a lump in your throat, and most of the time you just want to punch everyone that let Francis down in the face, and you get so angry you want to scream, but let’s not forget that this is actually reality, and unfortunately these things happen in real schools and between real people.
I love Xander’s strength, Francis willingness to heal, and also his attachment to his roots.
Sarah Beth James is a new to me author, and I have loved this short story so much, I am gladi t was not too short; as a matter of fact, I think I would have read and loved a full-length, 500-pages book of this story!


your stories are well written & come from the heart and are full of experienced truths

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How gay is gay enough for socity?

Written from the POV of a female bisexual.

I’ve been going to gay bars since my twenties, long before I questioned myself and came out when I was 30. Why? Because they are safe! I went with gay friends,  it was a good night out and they were super accepting of everyone. Plus, no hassles from weird guys getting hands-on or demanding sex. Although I did get asked out by a few girls and had to politely decline. Which, never caused me a problem.

When I moved to the Peak District, there were no gay bars or gay events. BOO!!!! So, I had to stop attending for two years. I moved back into the city last year (Sheffield) and also have a few trips to Manchester’s Village. The first time I went to Manchester, I messed up. I admit it. I had zero ideas up until that night, that there were Pride bars that accepted all, gay bars and lesbian bars. Nowhere I had lived had either. So, when I went to the village, I was wow where do I go? On my own, as I was up for the night to see a show, I walked down Canal Street and picked at random a bar that wasn’t too busy and had good music on, ordered a drink and sat down with it.

After a few minutes of funny looks, one of the bar team came over to me and politely asked if I knew what kind of bar I was in. I replied rather innocently, this is the pride village, isn’t it? I’m not straight, I’m bi and I just wanted to have a quiet drink. He smiled at me and asked if I was new to the area. When I said yes, he very nicely explained to me that certain bars on the street were for certain people, and I had walked into the wrong kind by accident. Horrified, I apologised and promised to finish my drink fast and leave. A few minutes later, another bar member came up to me and I told him I was sorry and I would leave in a couple of minutes. He handed me a second drink and told me that they had spoken to the guys there (and yes, bless them, they had asked personally every guy in there if they minded a like-minded lady joining them and none had) and I could stay as long as I would like. As they knew I wouldn’t try to hit on any of the men. In fact, more than one of the guys asked me to dance, until I eventually moved on to a bar with more open policy. Kudos for the bar, taking a bad situation and dealing with it in a non-offensive inclusive way.

However, not all Pride bars are like this. After that event, I have taken more care to stand outside the bar a few minutes. Check who goes in and out, and make sure that I don’t offend anyone by popping into the wrong place. I don’t even go to vanilla, as it is a lesbian bar and I don’t think it is right. Although I have been told I would be welcome. Lately, I am finding Pride bars are giving me an attitude of disgust. Even one I am a member of. The case or the glare up and down as I get to the door only to be told, This isn’t a straight club. Or told I pass for straight, so I shouldn’t be there. One night last summer, in bar pop with dozens of other women there watching the drag show. One guy decided to tell me to get out of ‘his’ fucking gay bar cause he didn’t want no straight bitch in there. He tried to hit me, and thankfully two gay guys defended me and the bouncers kicked him out. Thank you to those guys, I never did get your names. They stayed with me and danced with me all night.

I’m finding this whether I go to bars alone, or with a group of friends. I am constantly having to defend my sexuality and my right to be inside the bar. I understand since what happened at the Pulse Nightclub, that gay bars are tightening up security, but this is just insane. We are pushing people out of our community and our safe spaces!

Last night, I had a terrible experience in a local pride bar. I went alone, I should have been meeting someone who didn’t show up. Not a big deal, people are friendly enough there and soon enough I was invited to dance with several groups of people. I really do love how welcoming people are, or most of them are. There was a young gay guy there, who had also been stood up and was a bit upset his boyfriend wasn’t there. He was also young, (early twenties) and a little drunk talking to me. He asked me to dance for a while, so I did and we shared a few drinks and had a blast. Then he kissed me and apologised for it. I told him that it was fine, I knew he was gay and that it meant nothing.

It’s very much not the first time that a drunk gay guy has kissed me at a Pride or in a bar. I get on well with gay guys cause I give the banter back, I don’t mind dancing and the odd kiss, I don’t touch anything I’m not invited to, I don’t take it that a kiss means we are gonna have sex. I know its just friendly. Also, being a good ten plus years older than him, I felt kinda obliged to make sure he was okay, so when he got a little drunk I took him out for some air and he got some water. Kissed me outside in the smokers area, then he grabbed my hand to dance me back inside for one last dance before we both got (separate) taxis home. One of the doormen, who wasn’t a regular (and yes, I am in this bar enough I am a member and that the regular door staff tell me off if I haven’t been for a while) decided to shout at me that the guy I was with was gay, he was always in here with guys and that I should stop pressuring him for shit cause I wasn’t gonna get anywhere. I was just floored by it. I shouted back I damn well know that, and so what if he is gay we are just dancing. The guy shouted back at him too, but after that, I just felt too disgusted by what had happened to stay.

I am not straight.

I have a right to be in a Pride bar.

I have a right to mix with my community.

I have the right to make a new friend and dance with him without staff making comments I am to straight or trying it on with a gay man.

I am not a slut, I don’t sleep around.

Even if I did, what the fuck is it to do with them when it is two consenting adults?

And btw, what about the two lesbians making out on the dance floor?

What about the two guys almost having sex in the cage?

What is so offensive about two gay people dancing if they are a man and a woman?

Pride bars, LGBTQ* community, you have a very long way to go before the B is safe in your community.

A M/F bisexual couple is not a straight couple!

Just how gay must I look before you will accept me?

I am annoyed.



Joining Hydra Productions

I’ve said for a little while now that I had a small publishing deal, yesterday Hydra produced the following artwork so I can finally share more details with you.

Originally, I signed to Hydra this spring to work in several short story collections due out over the next 18 months.

Deal With the Devil.

For The Love of the Gods

Reapers Anonymous


Mayhem on all Hallow’s Eve.


Two weeks ago, I pitched the first story in the Unhappily Ever After series to the company and received an acceptance. Which I am very excited about. The reviews and positive comments from people on the first story I put out last year made me want to put out a full collection of these twisted fairytales. Which, I hope to have out for Halloween 2018 or at the very least, end of the year.

Thank you to Hydra for accepting me, I look forward to seeing where this journey will take both myself and my writing.

Love Sarah


Rainbow Romances: Preorder now!

After three months of hard work from our team, we are pleased to report that Rainbow Romances collection is ready for preorder. Raising funds for National Aid’s Trust.

With stories that include MM, FF and bisexuality, we are sure you will fall in love with each and every one of our couples in this collection. The stories are sweet, loving, caring, heartbreaking at times and full of highly relatable characters. Showing that love really is love, whoever the subject is.

My own story, Until My Dying Day, shows Francis struggling to deal with moving from the reservation into a normal white city school when his mother falls ill. Dealing with bullying, death, homophobia and abuse before he meets the boy of his dreams in Xander. Who does everything he can to bring a little joy into Francis’s life. Cutting between current day, and their relationship with the past and how they got to be where they are. We follow a painful, yet fulfilling journey of how Francis’s life improved.

Preordering on all Amazon stores



Rainbow Romances: Until My Dying Day.

Here we are again, talking about my charity collections for NAT.

Rainbow Romances is a passion of mine and around 20 bloggers, writers and creative people. We want to bring together two volumes (this year) of LGBTQ characters finding love and happiness, even if it takes some time to get there. To help spread a little positivity into this dark world as well as raising awareness for our community. Love really is love, whoever is the subject.


My story (Until My Dying Day) focuses on a teenager (Francis) from the Alabama-Coushatta reservation in Texas, about 100 miles outside of Houston. Born to a white mother and Native father. When his mother becomes sick, they have to give up their life at the res to move into Houston to get her the medical care that she needs. Which is a huge upheaval for Francis. Not only has he got to deal with a dying mother, he has to deal with being the only Native in a public school. Bullying, homophobia and his own inner turmoil. His mental health takes a downturn and he ends up in the hospital for some time after giving up on the world. Finally, in there he finds himself drawn to another student. Who wants nothing more than to help Francis and a chance to escape the pain of his past that doesn’t include addiction or death.


The beta readers are loving this story. Jessie was moved to tears. Extra scenes are being put in to extend the touching love story that shows even through the worst of times, there is always hope for something better.

Coming June 2018

Love Sarah

With thanks to Nerdy Designs by Jessie for all the teasers and artwork.

rainbow teaser



Stay With Me launches this easter for NAT!

As I have already blogged, I will be working a lot for National Aids Trust this year in various collections. There are the two collections I am working on with a host of talented writers, Rainbow Romances due June 2018 and Rainbow Holidays due Dec 2018. This collection was planned long before the Rainbow gang got together to help me.

Here we have nine stories, a cross-match of my Amor series stories, some fluffy romance and some of my more fantasy LGBTQ fictions. Some of them are quite dark, but all end up with a form of happy ever after by the end.

All profits from the three collections will go directly to NAT.

Paperback copies of Stay With Me can be ordered here:



Kindle copies can be preordered for release on the 4th of April here:



According to my Amazon details, if you order the paperback you can get the ebook for only 99c.

I hope you love my stories as much as I do. I will be launching this book at Stockport Pride, 29th July.


Artwork by Nerdy Designs by Jessie